Saturday, December 12, 2009
Next term will definitely be a lot tougher because I am taking 16 credits, doing a practicum (observing in a classroom), and tutoring at a middle school. Also, I have to take classes earlier in the day and haven't quite figured out what I am going to do with Griffey. I am starting to get a little worried about how busy and stressful next term will be, but for right now I am just going to enjoy my winter break!
Although this Christmas is going to be a bit different, I am still excited to do all the traditional holiday things, especially for Griffey's sake. We went and saw Santa at the mall and Griffey has been dressing up festively.
I also had a Christmas party to try to get in the Holiday spirit. I had a lot of fun decorating for it. I used four rolls of white streamers and lots of white balloons to make it a winter wonderland. I even had crafts set up for the kids. Everyone brought really good food too. It was pretty fun and I think everyone enjoyed it. I get really nervous when I am in charge of something like a party because I really want everyone to enjoy it. That's partly why I had a party-to face my fears! I forgot to take pictures until the very end, so I only have a couple and some people had already left. Oh, and we didn't let the boys in the pictures! haha
Hopefully Adam will be able to enjoy his Christmas even though he isn't where he wants to be. I sent him a couple packages and I know some other people did too. We are very grateful for our family and friends and the support they have been giving us, especially Adam, throughout this year and this holiday season. I bet it is so hard for Adam being so far away from family and friends, especially this time of year, and I have so much admiration and respect for him because he is being so brave and strong through all of this.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
We can already tell that Griffey loves candy just like me!
He was in shock with all his choices laying right out in front of him!
This Halloween wasn't very eventful because Adam wasn't here and it's just not the same without him, but it was still very fun to introduce Griffey to all the traditions of Halloween. He was too young to trick-or-treat, so we dressed him up and took pictures and then he hung out with Grandma while I was at the Duck game.
I am excited for next year because Griffey will be older and walking and although he won't understand Halloween or the concept of trick-or-treating, he still will be able to score us candy!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Sometimes I worry too much what other people think. Actually, too often I worry what other people think. I don't worry so much about what people think about me, but I worry about if people are happy and what role I am playing their happiness.
I am not the type of person to say I don't want something in order to be polite, even though I am a really dying to have it. You know? Like saying "oh no, that's okay, you have it..." when you really want it. Just say you want it. I feel like that leads to weird, unecessary resentment of silly little things. So, I feel like I do a good job of speaking my mind and standing up for what I feel is important. I don't understand the point of being passive aggressive.
With that said, I still worry to much about hurting other people's feelings. I know it is good to worry about others because it motivates you to help them, but I think too much about it. I am glad that Adam is my husband and that I can run my feelings in this realm across him because he gives me a great perspective.
I don't know if it is because he is a boy or because he is Adam, but usually when I tell him all that I am thinking about something and how I don't know if I should do this or say this because someone else might think this or do this...he always tells me to not worry about it. He says that their own feelings are on them and I am wasting my energy worrying about what they might get out of what I say or do.
It is nice being married to him, because he helps pull me back to that place when I get too caught up.
Since I have become a mom and the spokesperson for my little man, I have had to put his needs ahead of everything else. His health, happiness, and wellbeing take top priority, especially over my overworrying about what people will think.
Because of this, I have come to the conclusion that it may sound rude to ask people to act a certain way around Griffey or do things a certain way because of Griffey, but I don't care anymore. My top priority is Griffey and I hope people can see where I am coming from.
The reason I am stuck on this is because I felt rude asking people, especially adults, to wash their hands before touching Griffey. It seems weird to check up on another adult's hygeine, but it is necessary and so I will stop worrying.
I don't want Griffey to get sick, especially if it is preventable. I don't want Griffey to get sick more than I don't want to hurt other people's feelings.
Please wash your hands. Especially after going to the bathroom- that is just gross. Please cover your mouth when you cough and stay home if you are sick. Please understand how scary it is to have a newborn in this germy world, especially during flu season.
How do I politely ask someone older than me who thinks they know better than me, to wash their hands or stay far from Griffey. How do I approach other parents about telling their kids to wash their hands before touching Griffey?
Over the summer, I took on the project of sewing Griffey's outfit. This was a huge feat for me, because I had no idea how to sew and the ladies at Joann's Fabrics actually told me to get help and didn't believe in me. I guess I asked too many novice questions. They seemed very unsure of me.
Well, I figured it out with some help and I think I did a pretty good job!
Haylee loves Griffey and showed it with kisses after his blessing.
Grandma Booher, Uncle Fred, and Nathan made the trip from Washington. Grandma and Grandpa Dimock also came from Utah. It was great to have so much family here too meet Griffey and see Adam. We had a lot of fun catching up with everyone.
I am really grateful that Adam was able to give Griffey a blessing while he was here. I think it is a wonderful gift to Griffey from his daddy and I am appreciative that in preparing for his blessing, Adam and I were able to sit down together and talk about our hopes and dreams for Griffey.
Through envisioning how we want Griffey's childhood to be, we were able to see what kind of parents we want to be. The main hopes and goals we have for Griffey is that he may be happy and healthy and understand the importance of sharing his blessings with others-whether they may be his knowledge, his talent, his compassion, his testimony, his humor, or anything that he has to give.
I am grateful for what a wonderful little boy he is and I am excited I get to have him in my life forever.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
I, of course, had nothing to worry about. Adam is Adam and he will always be my husband and the man I married. It was very strange seeing him at first though, because I haven't seen him in real life for six months. I am so used to seeing him through the computer that it was kind of hard to comprehend seeing him up close and right next to me.
The airport was pretty empty when Adam's plane landed, so of course everyone that was there saw us reunite and saw Adam pick up Griffey for the first time. Adam was embarrassed, so we got out of there pretty quick. Griffey was in a fussy mood when Adam arrived, so when Adam picked him up for the first time, Griffey started crying! I thought it was pretty funny.
From the airport, we went straight to the Hilton in Eugene. I booked us two nights there because I am staying at my dad's and we wanted to feel like we had our own place for a little while. The unfortunate thing is that Adam came home the day my classes started, so I was busy balancing school and homework with Adam. Of course, Adam always comes first and I was able to get my homework done while Adam was sleeping or hanging out with friends.
Here is Adam holding Griffey on the morning after he arrived. Griffey did not act like Adam was a stranger. You could tell he knew his dad. I am grateful for Skype because Adam and Griffey get to see eachother and Adam will stay very familiar to Griffey.
Back at the cabin, Adam and Griffey cuddled up together. I love how you can see Adam's love for Griffey in these pictures.