Saturday, April 25, 2015

Monster Trucks

Griffey has loved monster trucks ever since her was little.  We brought him to a monster truck show in Eugene when he was two and have always wanted to bring him back.  We surprised him with this trip to the monster truck show at Chase Field in Phoenix in January.  He was so excited!
 I know he really appreciates the special time with just us and no other siblings.
We all agreed the best moment was when Grave Digger drove up to a wall and drove up it and did a back flip.

Friday, April 24, 2015

Yay! We are coming home to Oregon!

We are coming home! I had an interview last week for a job in Dorena, Oregon and they called me back a couple hours later to offer me the job! I am so excited!!

I will be teaching a K/1 combo class in a small country school outside of Cottage Grove, Oregon.

We are so excited to finally know that it is the right time to come home.  I was feeling really lost on whether to stay here or come home because we had jobs here and nothing really lined up there.  Well,  after I didn't sign my contract here in Arizona, I was told that I still had the option to reapply to the district and they could find me a place in another school because my position was already filled. So, I did end up reapplying and interviewing with another school and I got the job, but hadn't signed a contract yet.  It was nice to have a back-up plan, but it didn't feel right. I felt pretty depressed and lost staying here and having to go to a new school and not knowing where Griffey would go to school and not wanting to stay in Arizona.

Adam was still feeling unsure about leaving, but we agreed I would still look in Oregon and I got an amazing job!!

And now...we just found out that Adam's school is most likely being closed down due to budget cuts next year, so he wouldn't have had a position for next year anyway, so it all worked out perfect and we got out of here at the right time!

We don't know when we are going to leave Arizona yet.  I have some trainings in June in Oregon that they would like me to be at, but Adam wants to teach summer school here, so we are just going to weigh out the different options and see when the best time is to move.

Tuesday, March 31, 2015


Natalia has been walking for about a month now and Noah is still not walking.  It has been a little concerning that he hasn't started walking yet, but I keep hearing that I don't really have to be worried until he is around 18 months. They are 16.5 months right now so I'm not going to worry yet.

He has always been a little behind Natalia with developmental stages (crawling, talking, smiling, etc.) but it is only because he was sick so much last spring. He spent so many days in the hospital and at home recovering from his RSV and Bronchiolitis that is makes sense that he has been a little slower than Natalia.

Usually when I hold Noah's hands and try to get him to walk with me, he will take a few steps and then try to drop down on his knees.  It seems like he just has no interest in it.

Tonight, he was acting way more determined to walk than usual.  He kept crawling over to Griffey's Frisbee on the ground and putting one foot on it and standing up with the other foot on the ground. He thought it was hilarious that he had one foot on the Frisbee and kept laughing so hard and looking around to see who noticed him. 

Once he noticed we were all cheering for him so much for standing, he crawled over to his push walker and stood up behind it and started trying to walk while pushing it. He kept falling over and losing his balance, crying, and then getting back up to try it again. He did this for probably about 10 minutes.  Usually he would have given it up by then, but he was so proud of how much we were cheering for him. When I said it was time to go to bed, he started crying because he wanted to keep practicing, when he usually is fine going to bed.

Seeing his determination was sweet because I have been seeing a lot more of their personalities develop lately and I know he will get the walking thing down pretty soon.

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Testimony Meeting and Listening for Answers

Today was Fast Sunday and we had our testimony meeting at church.  About half way through the meeting, Griffey turned to me and told me I should go up there.  I told him, "Ask Daddy," because I hadn't felt like I was burning to say anything at the moment and had Natalia on my lap and Noah on the floor next to me.  When Griffey turned and asked Adam, Adam also kind of brushed off the idea, but said he would go up and help Griffey.  I told Griffey I would go up there if he did and he thought about it for a second and got really nervous. He told me he would be too scared. 

Griffey sat and thought for a minute and then told me he would if I helped him know what to say. Then he stood up and said, "Let's go!" Scary! I don't go up there very often either, so he was really testing my comfort zone too!

Griffey bore his testimony in front of the congregation for the first time! He said, "I have a testimony of Jesus Christ.  I know he loves me.  I have a testimony of prayer.  I know that every day when I pray, I feel comforted.  In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen." His testimony was so sweet and simple and perfect.  I am so proud of him!

After Griffey, I bore my testimony of prayer and receiving revelation.  I have had to rely a lot on the power of prayer as we decide whether this is the right time to go back to Oregon or not.  Obviously we really want to go back after this school year, but we are waiting to see what  Heavenly Father has in store for us.

Adam and I have been praying, fasting, and going to the temple in hopes of having out path laid out more clearly.  So far, I have felt that our purpose in coming to Arizona was to become a stronger family unit and strengthen our bonds.  We didn't know it when we came, but I feel that way now.

Now I feel like Heavenly Father is telling us we can go back if we feel like our marriage and our family unit is strong enough.  Here, we do everything together. We carpool every day.  We do everything together every night and on the weekends and in Oregon, we have a lot of family and friends and a lot of distractions from our little family. When we are upset we pull apart to deal with it, whereas here, we are stuck together to figure it out.  We have been able to resolve conflicts so much quicker and easier here.

I feel like Heavenly Father wants to make sure we understand how everything will change when we go back.  So I evaluated all of that and I feel like we are stronger than ever and can go back. 

Then, next I felt like we needed to evaluate our finances.  I kept praying and kept feeling like I needed to create a budget so we could see what it would look like to move to Oregon with three kids and no jobs and how long our savings would last and take time to really think about the financial impact of moving.  I felt stressed by what our budget looked like, but I also know that we will have our tax refund and we will be able to get by for a few months until we get a job or else we will find some other kind of income besides teaching while also looking for teaching jobs.

I feel like the main answer I am getting so far is that Heavenly Father is trying to teach us to think through every aspect of this big decision and then make the best choice.  I think we will be fine either way, but I want our children to thrive so I keep praying for more specific answers.

Right now, I don't know what we are going to do, but I just keep praying and I just keep reminding myself to keep my personal desires out of it so the Spirit can lead us in the right direction.

A small part of me wants to stay.  Right now, Griffey goes to kindergarten at my school, right across from my classroom. I cherish this so much.  After we drop Adam off at his school and the babies off at Anita's, Griffey and I have a few minutes alone in the car to talk about our goals and hopes for the day. When we get to school, Griffey hangs out in my classroom for an hour before school starts.  He plays on the computer, helps me get things ready, and sometimes joins my before school reading group.  He knows the kids in my class because they come in and see him before school.  I know what he is doing in his class and he knows what I am doing in mine.  At the end of the day, he will come in while I pack up and do the math or art activity that I haven't cleaned up from the day. He will ask me if my kids were good and what we learned about.

We talk about our day and share all the little joys and experiences that I wouldn't have even known about him if we weren't at the same school and so close.  I also see him throughout the day when I am walking my class to specials and his class is just getting back.  He used to yell, "Mom!" across the courtyards (all the classrooms open up to the courtyards unlike in Oregon where it is all one building), but I taught him to just quietly wave.  I love spotting him across the courtyard waving.

If we go back to Oregon, I will miss out on all of these things.  Most likely, we will not be at the same school and I will be trying to make time to pry information out of him about his day while also juggling setting up a new classroom and getting to know a new school's policies and procedures and probably a new grade level and curriculum and everything else.  If we stay, I will not lose my precious time with my little boy.

On the other hand, I know that Griffey will not stay at the school I teach at forever. It has always been the plan to go to a different school after first grade..  Anyway, I know that the precious time I have with Griffey would end soon either way and I can't blame it on Oregon.  Obviously, there are a million things going through my head and I am trying to find the right balance between overanalyzing and listening too close and  not listening close enough to here the direction of the Spirit.